If you remember way back in January this girl set some goals. Most of the goals I set, I failed miserably achieving them. This past year has been especially difficult for me in more ways than one.
My husband has been in school. Paramedic school is so much more involved than EMT school. I think for this year I have spent time been with my husband an average of 4-6 hours a week. That mostly includes just having dinner together. We did manage to squeeze in 2-3 full days over the summer while he was on break in August. One of my goals was to strengthen my marriage. Between finding my husband was doing more than looking at pornography and not seeing him, I can’t really say my marriage is stronger. I do have to say though that I believe this period has shown me a lot of other things. Our marriage can with stand time apart and huge mistakes. I am praying for my husband more.
In the areas of being frugal and getting better physically, I have failed. This year we have ate out more times than I would like to admit. I haven’t made more blogging income, but have recently changed my mind about what that means to me. I haven’t lost any weight, in fact I gained some.
I have even failed on being more creative. I love doing that stuff but with trying to up the blogging income, I lost me.
Starting Over with Grace
I have shared all that to say that I am restarting with God’s grace. September 4th was my January 1st. I can make changes today. God allows it. He has seen me fail, he has seen my struggle and is there to encourage me. During August I battled some depression, but I am slowly climbing out of it and in a way redefining who I am. Change is good and I am so glad I have God by my side.