Heartbreak and God’s Grace


2c93b3579dfa6c7ca0ca085f210774f6Last Tuesday started like any other. My husband came home from his first job. We enjoyed some time together. Then he left for his second job. An hour later I heard a phone go off and realized he left his phone at home. I checked the notification and my heart sank. He was emailing women and had started an account on an adult hook-up website.

Still six days later and I am still in a state of shock. I knew my husband battled a pornography addiction. I never thought it would progress to the next level. He was seeking out more.

We fought. I cried. He tried defending himself.

I opened my Bible and 2 Corinthians jumped out at me. Paul is talking about his thorn of the flesh. He says,  “ Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:8-10)

I was in a hardship. I felt weak. I have learned in the last 6 days that God’s grace is sufficient for me. Continue Reading

5 Verses for Wives of Pornography Addicts

1155ee97b5dcbf190e811d19ff8128ffI came out a couple weeks ago and have said that my husband has a pornography addiction. I did not do that to shame him, but to offer encouragement to other women who are facing the same situation as I am. I do not feel free to share at my church the struggles I face. I have the most amazing church family, but pornography is just one of those issues. My husband is doing good still, but I know as with any addiction that the struggle will be lifelong. I also know my God is in control!

Last week I had the chance to attend the Refine Us Tour and the couple that spoke have such an amazing testimony. They have gone through many trials including pornography and infidelity. Now their mission is to help others.

When I think of my husband’s addiction I pray for him. I know his addiction is not about me. At least I know it is in my head, sometimes my heart doesn’t get the same message. That is when I need God’s Word. Here are 5 verses that have helped me understand and cope with what I am going through.  Continue Reading